todays work out... ugh.

So my basic cardio workout consists mainly of H.I.I.T (High Intensity Interval Training). My trainer alternates my sessions between cardio and weights on a weekly basis, and my favorite cardio is always a boxing session. Nothing like smashing pads and taking my anger and frustration out on a sparring partner. Though running up the stairs between rounds always kills me.

Cardio on my own is a total different story.

I to try follow the guidelines of Body For Life as close as possible but depending on my recovery rate from the previous training session, that always goes out the window. Today was pretty good. Bill Phillips Body for Life program says you only need to do this for 20 minutes but I always do two rounds.. I don't know if it's detrimental to the effectiveness of just doing one hardcore 20 minutes, but I always do 45 minutes at least at the gym.

Today, first up was the bike. Warm up 5 minutes at level 6, above 60 rpm, then level 8 for a minute at above 75 rpm, then 10 for a minute at above 90, then back to 8.. I continue to alternate intervals like this until minute 19 where it's level 15 as hard and fast as I can go for a minute.. knackered I head to the Treadmill.

I used to hate the treadmill but I've found a new found adoration for it. The fact my legs feel like jelly after smashing out a sprint lets me know I've worked hard. After 20 mins on the bike though, it's a little hard to run so I did an incline walk alternating between normal (1.0) and 7.0 every minute at fast walking pace for 10 minutes then straight over to the crosstrainer. That was 10 minutes alternating every minute between level 7 and 9.

So that's it.. cardio, done. I stretch for about 10 minutes after I did 3 sets of a 30 second plank hold, and 12 abdominal twists with a 5 kg medicine ball. I've noticed I can definitely smash out the cardio a lot easier than I used to be able to.

It's time..

When I was 5, I was an overweight child. My parents figured it was just that typical "puppy fat" stage that some kids go through and eventually I'd outgrow it. At 9, they took me to a dietician who I remember to be incredibly rude and mean after returning from a family holiday in Disneyland where my parents had allowed me to gain a kg because of the bad food I was eating out there. Ruthless.

I've always been on the heavy side. Sometimes not so heavy more thick, but mostly- just plain old overweight. At 29, I think it's time for me to face reality and the truth. I need to do this for me. I've lost myself.

I'm not lazy. I currently go to the gym 6 days a week. I have a personal trainer who kicks my ass every time. I eat healthy except for one day a week which is my free day. It's a struggle since my whole family are foodies and wino's and my brother considers himself the next Jamie Oliver. I've had 3 tests done to assess any physical/medical problems that may be affecting my ability to lose weight. All clear.

So, I guess now it's up to me, I gotta push harder, find a different program, eat less calories. I decided to blog about it in the hopes that it will stop me from bailing out. I can't bail this time. I want this. I want to have an amazing 30th. So here I am. Trying to better my life. Find me again, without losing my ass that all those squats I do (painfully every day) have given me.



currently 35 kg away from goal weight.. oh boy.